Trepidation

My love

How long since I have whispered your name to silence of night's ebony wings

And yet even now

Your name recalls to me all those joyful, wonderful, magical memories

But on swift feet

Here come the cool sliding memory, our last memory, when you weren't there

And I waited for you

And you did not come even though you said you'd come and I was all alone

And now you're here

And you have that look in your eyes again that would melt my heart

And then break it again

You ought to know more about human hearts then this, we are too easily broke

So now you've come

And as we lay here in the silence of night's warm embrace

I will try not to cry

We won't say anything, do anything, just you and I lying here

And we won't move

Because deep down we both know it won't do either of us any good anymore

We will stay here

And let the dust of ages collect like a blanket to sooth our slumber

And I will try not to die

But I can make no promises, my love, I cannot make them as easy as you

And maybe I will die lying here

But at least this way I know that if I die here I will die with you by my side

And afterward?

That is no longer up to me is it? Your hands. Your choice. Your move.

Your love.