Apologies for my Friend

“Pardon me if I have repeated myself
Pardon me but I do repeat
Pardon me if my mind moves not on
Of stone is made my feet

Excuse me if I still remain the same
Excuse me if I do not change
Excuse me but I seem to be stuck
Gone numb in all of my brains

Forgive me if my heart stays here
Forgive me if it stops its beat
Forgive my stagnant life
Of stone is made my feet

And sorry if I repeat myself
But I have nowhere to go
Sorry I didn’t want to be like this
Sorry, I just can’t let go”

This he said to me
And he had said it all before
So I ask apologies for him
He deserves so much more

Declaration

When pestilence comes over us
And corpses lie in the street
I will place my gaze upon the LORD
My body he will keep

When the wars abound relentlessly
And so many children cry with care
I will place my gaze upon the LORD
And know that He is there

When the storms clouds rage and waters rise
So many lives now gone
I will place my gaze upon the LORD
Who teaches the new song

When the market falls and the money fails
And the world comes crashing down
I will place my gaze upon the LORD
Whose provision will abound

When the jobs are scarce and the food gone
And hunger falls on the land
I will place my gaze upon the LORD
Who will feed me from His hand

When the love is turned and the pain begins
And all my hope is dead
I will place my gaze upon the LORD
The lifter of my head

When my heart come crashing, breaking down
And all the tear release
I will place my gaze upon the LORD
And He will give me peace

No matter what was and no matter what is
And no matter what is yet to be
I will place my gaze upon the LORD
In His love He will hide me

Breathing Again

Falling, so fast and far and deeper into the chasm
The cold, wet walls passing so fast and far and deeper
But what will you do when the water comes rushing up
Icy fingers reaching to kill your burning heart?

As the waters rush about and grope in the dark
As the million mutes screaming without a sound
Can your frozen hands and feet swim in this world?
Or will your surface become your seafloor?

Trapped in the atmosphere so thin and harsh
Where words and sounds echo in empty memory
Struggling in silk threads around your heart and lungs
While the bitter worn eats at your Muse’s hands

As the walls grow closer, the wind blows stronger
Water everywhere, emptiness tugging at weary lungs
How can anyone breathe in this breathless world?
Do you dare to take off this cold, metal respirator?

Do you dare to breathe the cool, evening air again?
Letting the pain of fresh air burn within you
And the beating of your heart remind you that you are still alive
That you can AND WILL survive

Let it go, let it go, let it go
Let it fall, and break upon the floor
May you breathe the untouched air again
Unfiltered, unashamed, unchanged, untouchable

Beating, breathing, living, loving
Building, basking, lasting, learning

A Psalm of Supplication

When the world turns colder,
You are my pillar of fire
When the storms rage around me,
You are my secret shelter
When all the world turns to shadow,
You are my guiding light
Now when all hope has abandoned me,
Be my comfort, O God
In this hour and day of darkness,
when the sun rose black in the sky
I have looked only unto Your face,
O Keeper of my life
Guide me now, in Your beautiful way
Guide me LORD and let me not loose my way
Once Your servant called wisdom a woman
Crying out in the streets to all who would heed
Where are you wisdom? I would take your words
And cherish them all my days
Where are you, now that my inner most being
Is broken, abhorrent to my very soul?
When hope dies, God, You are my Strength
When love fails, Jesus, You are my Loving Arms
When sorrow comes, Spirit, You are my Comfort
O Father, heal my heart, as only You can
I will wait upon You, even if I must wait all day
I will remain here, in this place, and wait
I will wait for Your promise and purpose
And when the world turns brighter, still, I will wait for You
For without Your love and hope now, I will die

When Love Lost Home

Broken glass falls through naked darkness
There is no more love left in this crimson shade
Where will the rivers run if not to the sea?
But what happens when the sea disappears?
What happens when love finds no home?

When you loosed your bow’s arrow,
Did you think I would not bleed as well?
Men bleed with their hearts and hands
And suddenly I find myself here in hell
See what happens when love looses his home.

Shatter on reality, shatter onward and break
Time has ever been my friend and enemy
Yesterday was bleak with a glimmer of light
Today you have killed the light, the sun
And all turned to numbness

Time for another mask to be made
Crafted smiled and eyes that dance with pain
I have worn masks before and know how to die
While smiling on the outside, and rotting
Breaking, shattering, smashing

Where has the sun gone?
Where is the sea?
Where has your love run?
Why have you killed me?