Arthur's Tears

What words are left

You have broken me utterly

The way the sun caught your smile

And it reminded me of once

When that smile could have been

Could have been

For me

You walked like the sun

So surely and so true

As if your course was unchanging

Empyrean and set

And I would be the dog

Your spaniel, Demetrius

Following always in your wake

Again I dare to glance

To glance at you for second

And all I see is the gentle wave

Of the ocean curling to meet the shore

It's been caught in your hair

Those chocolate waves

Veined with purest gold

How I wish to draw near again

To breathe in again

To smell your hair once more

As I did so many times

While you slept soundly in the sun

You are slowly seeping like the dawn

Coloring my world that was grey for so long

Trying to fight your way once more

To the place you held before

When you were my sun

My centre, my soul

O I cannot let it

I tell myself I cannot let you

I must restrain myself

I must contain myself

I cannot let love sprout again

Not when

When you tore my still beating heart

Out of the chest and left naught but night

You have no idea

Not the slightest clue

How far your fingers reach

You choose over and over again

As if I don't exist

And just as I am ready

Set to give you up

Then you turn that face

As pale as the moon

With a blush of your drink

Breathing on your cheeks

Those lovely cheeks

Whose circles I've traced

Time and time again

Mapping all for my memory

As if I knew this day would come

Again

Just then

When I would let you go

And say it is better for you to go

Then you turn and smile my way

A word of affection so long sought

A King is not supposed to cry

And yet your beauty draws tears

From my soul

My longing for you, my love

Consumes my heart and mind

And turns all to fountains and springs

That drain from my eyes as the rivers

The rivers of desire and heartbreak

That pool into the ocean of my pillow

Again

You wipe the tear from my cheek

And trace it with your smooth thumb

And suddenly we're right back where we started

What words are left

You have broken me utterly